Insomnia blows

Sooo, it’s like 5am and I’m supposed to be up in four hours or so…yet I’m wide fucking awake. I’m alone at my mom’s house in Atlanta and of course I have to be in Augusta by a certain time because heaven forbid if everything isnt planned out to the minute in her family. I think that’s basically why I’m awake because I always have trouble sleeping when I’m stressed about having to make a deadline on a trip.

I don’t know why the hell I’m wide awake because I’ve tried ambien, Valium, and even a drink or two and yet here I sit wide awake…and on top of it feel completely sober. If I had anywhere to go in Augusta where people would be awake when I got there I’d probably just say fuck it and go now..ill be more tired driving at 10 or 11 than I am now sadly. FML.

Well, guess Ill just lay here some more and get no sleep and leave early or fall asleep in like an hour and sleep through the 4 alarms I have set…should be fun either way. Happy early Christmas Eve.


Wednesday Ramblings

Man, I can’t believe how much work a freaking English 1102 class can be. For tonight I was supposed to write an essay, read a quarter of a book, read a short story, and take an online quiz before class. I thought I’d gotten it all done but apparently I missed a quiz that he told us to take at the beginning of class but fuck it. I just want to keep my B in this class as I shouldn’t have to be taking it anyhow since I passed all the required English classes at a good liberal arts school my first go round in college.

On the other hand, it DOES feel good to be back in school again even if some of the people in the class could literally be my kids. At least I’m not the oldest in there by a fair amount. Plus compared to the guy in my class that literally looks and acts like he could be in a mental ward or american al qaeda, I probably seem This guy means well I guess and apparently has a history of mental problems but damn is he fucking out there. He randomly tells chicks in the class that they are hot and freaks them out and he always asks the prof questions that have nothing at all to do with what we’re talking about.

But anyhow, I’m supposed to be going down to the ATL this weekend for some friends of mine’s kid’s birthday party, and for once I can actually say I’m doing something constructive again instead of being penciled in as the eternal slacker guy. Just ready to get into some classes that actually have shit to do with want I want to learn.

Anyhow, that’s it for tonight I suppose. My chest is feeling a bit better today so maybe I just somehow pulled a muscle or something…I still don’t know. And I’ve managed to get a negative person out of my life, so that’s always good. Night all.


No, I’m not talking about the fake ham pork product, which I’ve never actually eaten. I’m talking about the email kind. I still use yahoo mail as my main personal email account even though I had to set up a gmail one when I got my phone. I actually mark stuff as spam, yet I still have massive amounts get through the supposed filter. I don’t ever bother to click on them and read them but since I run yahoo messenger at most times, I get a little popup every time I get new mail, with the sender’s name and either the subject or the first line of the email. So I get the gist of most of them.

I have two thoughts on the subject of spam email: first that there really must be a lot of people dumb enough to fall for it or the spammers wouldn’t bother. Second, I understand that most of these people/companies/whatever are based in other countries where english probably isn’t the first language, but couldn’t they hire someone with at least a 6th grade or so grasp of the english language to write their spam for them?

Obviously I’m fairly savvy when it comes to knowing not to click on things, but even if I wasn’t, I’d think that sentences like “Now you meet can many nice woman” would be enough to keep me from falling for any of them even if I were a moron. As I said, apparently they must get enough people falling for/clicking on their stuff to make it worth their time, but imagine how much more effective they could be if they hired someone that had even a slight grasp of english to craft their stuff.

Anyway, rant over.

Late night commercial rant

As I’ve said before in several posts, including my last one, I’m a night owl and also a frequent sufferer of insomnia. So I watch a lot of tv late at night if I’m not reading or while I’m doing stuff on my ipad. The shows on late at night aren’t always that bad but the commercials are literally so bad that they both make me feel bad about myself for apparently being in their demographic by being up at this time and make me want to throw something.

Some of my personal “favorites” include the lawyers(scumbags) trolling for Mesothelioma victims and people who took various drugs where everyone knew the side effects but apparently that doesn’t mean you still can’t sue. I mean I’m a guy and yet I know that if you take birth control pills there’s an increased risk of blood clots or stroke, and I’ve known since I was a kid that if you take too much tylenol it can fuck up your liver, but apparently you can sue for these things now.

Then there’s the nice lady who wants to have your catheter supplies sent right to your house! Complete with testimonials about how great said catheters are from “real” customers.

Then there’s the Lipozene commercial. This is a “drug” for “warning: only people who want to lose serious body fat”, complete with testimonials from real satisfied customers and claims of a university double blind study. I’ve always thought that if I was such a bad actor that the best I could do for a job was to play a satisfied customer on a bullshit late night commercial for a sham product, I’d think maybe it was time to find another job because acting just isn’t working out.

I think it’s honestly the bad actors/spokespeople that annoy me more than anything else about these commercials, combined with the fact that there really must be people dumb enough to fall for them or they wouldn’t be on.

The last one I can think of right now that annoys the shit out of me is for the various companies that try to talk old people into getting $10,000 life insurance policies. These have some of the worst actors/plots of anything, ever.

Some woman checking her mail and another woman comes up and says she’s sorry her mom died, but the woman checking the mail isn’t too broken up about it because she just got the check from Liberty US American AARP Insurance company for that 10k policy her mom was smart enough to take out before she kicked the bucket. There’s even worse ones than that..they defy description.

Anyway, end of my rant for now. Feel free to chip in your own “favorites”.

Fun morning so far

Well, I was planning on sleeping in until about 9 today because I didn’t have a ton of work to do, but of course as my luck always runs, I hear the beep beep of a truck backing up outside my house at 7:45. I look out my front window a few mins later and see a backhoe digging a nice size trench in the road right in front of my house. I went outside to ask the guys what was going and apparently they are going to dig up the whole edge of the road to put in a water line and meter to my asshole neighbor’s house. This is the guy that always brags about how he doesn’t have to deal with the city water because he has a well. Guess he changed his mind..I promise I didn’t poison his well or anything…lol.

I live on a dirt/gravel road that is already in shitty condition so I hate to see what it looks like when these guys are done with it, and I’m praying they don’t cut my internet line or something by accident. Oh well, shit happens. It’s just annoying that even though I live out in the country, between the house construction that’s been going on down the road from me all summer and stuff like this, it’s not nearly as quiet and peaceful as you would think it would be. On the bright side since I’ve been up I’ve at least been productive. Also pulled out my coffee machine for the first time in awhile and have had a couple of lattes already, so I’ll probably be wired for a bit.

My dog might be the worst watchdog ever. I love her but with all this racket going on she hasn’t paid it a lick of attention, yet if someone knocks on a door or rings the doorbell on TV she’ll bark up a storm.

I’m feeling productive today. I have some schoolwork to finish before tonight in addition to regular work, but I’ll try to write some more on here today. I’ve been slacking off lately just out of being tired and busy, and some of the stuff I’ve written lately has been crap in my opinion. I haven’t been getting as many views as I’d gotten used to, and while I will keep writing even if noone is reading, it is gratifying to know that some people are.

Anyway, off to take the first of 5 take home quizzes I need to finish before class tonight, so I will talk to y’all later and hope everyone has a great day.

Tuesday rants and raves

Start off with a rant: When did automatic dishwashers stop actually drying dishes? I’m sure it’s some kind of energy saving thing and I’ve tried using different detergents and even rinsing aids, whatever the fuck that is, and even though the little light on the dishwasher says it’s finishing with the dry cycle, my dishes are not dry. Now maybe I just have a shitty dishwasher but I seem to have noticed the same thing at my mom’s house. Between the loading it, the cycle running 2 hours, and then having to dry half the shit when I empty it, not sure how much of a “labor saving” device this really is…

Rave: my previously mentioned mancrush UGA freshman running back Todd Gurley has been named the starter(yes, I know noone but me cares but it’s my blog damnit!!).

Rant: People that work in a position where dealing with customers is the major part of their job yet use what I call the “1000 yard stare”, meaning they pretend not to see you when you’re standing in their line of vision when you need something from them, usually because they are too busy talking to their friends or doing something else they aren’t getting paid for.

This can be waiters/waitresses, people in retail stores, really any position where you have to deal with the public. I’m all for slacking off on the job when noone’s around but when I’m standing at your window, sitting at your table, etc..I shouldn’t have to pull out a red flag and wave it in the air to get your attention.

Early rave: I started listening to a new audiobook yesterday and am liking it so far. It’s called “The Messenger” by Stephen Miller. I’m not really sure where I found it, I browse Amazon and a lot of other sites looking for new books, but the premise sounded pretty interesting to me so I bought it in audio form. The basic story is a young Iraqi woman has been exposed to and had her hair and clothing and even skin exposed to a weaponized form of super smallpox, and then hopped on a flight to NYC.

The point of view alternates between her and a former US bioweapons scientist who was disgraced during the anthrax attacks after 9/11, and who’s now been brought back to help the government find her and others sent with basically the same mission. So far, it’s pretty interesting, especially the woman’s thoughts on America and her sometimes conflicted thoughts on what she’s doing. I’ll write a more informed opinion on whether nor not it’s worth a look once I’ve finished it.

I’ll finish off with an extra rave, of a sort. A friend of mine chided me a bit about my post last night about how I’m not a big fan of politics and how people shouldn’t post political stuff on Facebook or other social media sites. I don’t really disagree with what I said, and I’m still very cynical when it comes to American politics, but talking to someone with the passion to still believe that things can change and that it’s better to participate than just throw your hands up made me think at least. And on today of all days, I will say that no matter my reservations about our political system and my cynicism, I can’t think of a better system and I certainly consider myself lucky and proud to be an American.

PS. a last rant directed towards myself. I had written this whole post and read it a couple of times looking for mistakes before I realized that I had put Monday in the title rather than Tuesday. I guess it’s been that kinda day so far.

Rants and Raves…err..more rants

So since this is supposed to be my personal platform to get shit off my chest…I’m going to warn anyone that’s reading this, I’ve got some stuff to rant about…hopefully some can relate or even agree, but if not, as I said last night, feel free to skip this one. I don’t see this one as much me bitching as just plain ranting.

Alright, so first off, my mom has a cat. I don’t like cats, and this one is a particular asshole of a cat. Now, I know plenty of people that have cats and love them and all that good stuff, I just have made a personal choice based on my experiences not to like them on a general basis, there have been cats here and there that I’ve judged agreeable on a one on one basis, but again, I generally don’t like them. Not saying you’re a bad person if you do like cats, just implying it(kidding).

I’m a dog guy, I don’t like all dogs either, but if I’m gonna own an animal it’s gonna be a dog every time. I like dogs and dislike cats for the very same reasons that some uppity cat people claim cats are superior to dogs. I want an animal that I share my house and life with and pay to feed and take to the vet to get damn excited when I come home after being away…I don’t care if cats are supposedly smarter or more self sufficient or whatever, to me they just aren’t nearly as affectionate as dogs and even when they are, I’ll take a dog jumping on me, wagging its tail, and licking my face over a cat purring and running thru my damn legs.

I know there’s plenty of people that have been bitten by dogs and hell I’ve seen a few dogs that scared me a little bit, but in general, cats make me much more nervous. I don’t want something sitting on my lap that can just decide on a whim to stick out needle sharp claws near my crotch. And honestly I just kinda find cats to be unsanitary animals. Yes, I know dogs are just as bad but dogs also don’t jump up on my kitchen counters or dining room table after scratching thru a litter box.

So long rant short, I don’t like cats and I definitely don’t like my mom’s cat..nor does my dog for that matter.

The next thing that I realized that has been bugging me for awhile now is neighbors. Now some of you have probably heard about my neighbors that stuck a chicken coop next to my property without so much as saying a word to me about it, but whatever, I’m trying to get over that.

I’ve had some neighbors that I liked alright, some I really had no opinion on one way or another, and some I’ve hated, but my real point is that unless you’re actually a friend of mine, in which case you’re more than a neighbor, why the fuck should I have to stop and talk to you every time we happen to pass each other?

I guess my anxiety problems give me a little social anxiety in that I’m not huge on one on one conversations with people I don’t really know, but it really annoys me that just because someone lives on the same road as me, I must feel obligated to stop and talk to them about basically nothing and make smalltalk anytime we run into each other.

Like when I’m out walking in my neighborhood to get some exercise and have my earbuds in, I dread seeing a neighbor driving up or out walking as well or out in their yard because I don’t want to have to stop to talk to them. I guess that makes me an asshole and a bad neighbor, but I really just want to be left alone most of the time, and not waste either of our time with meaningless talk.

Maybe I really am destined to be a hermit, I don’t know. To be fair I feel the same way about situations like running into some person that I went to high school with that I wasn’t friends with or didn’t even really know and us both having to act like we are interested in each others’ lives for a few mins.

I’m probably kind of a hypocrite on this subject as well, because I’m actually one of those people that thinks that social niceties and manners and just thinking about other people than yourself are admirable traits..I just don’t extend that to social interactions with people I don’t know, I won’t be rude but it just bothers me.

And on the subject of social niceties and just common courtesy, what the fuck is up with how many people seem to just walk around in their own little bubble these days? I actually DO walk around in my own little bubble when I’m out in public a lot because I’m often listening to a book or podcast on my ipod, but I also think about my surroundings and other people enough that I won’t stop or abandon my shopping cart in the middle of a crowded aisle at a store and make other people have to either ask me to move it or try to thread some kind of needle just to get by.

I won’t stand in front of a display of something in a store for 20 mins if someone else is obviously try to look at the same thing. I won’t go to the instant checkout thing at the grocery store if I have a huge cartfull of shit that’s going to take me 20 mins to scan and pay for…let alone when the store is crowded. I won’t go to a drive thru if I’m getting food for like 15 people and there’s 5 cars behind me. I try never to cut in front of people and will often let other people go ahead if we show up at the same time.

These are just a few of the things that I notice on a regular basis and can never see myself doing, and it’s not because I’m a great person, I’m probably an asshole, but I’m an asshole that DOES think about how my actions affect other people. I also like to think it’s because I was raised with a certain dusting of manners and decorum. If I bump into someone or need them to move, I say excuse me, I hold open doors for people…I do the dude thing of just holding onto the door for the next dude but I’ll hold open the door for a woman.

I think part of my problem with a lot of this seemingly oblivious bullshit that people pull is not so much that they pull it, but that I’m surprised when they do..and that I’m mild mannered and logical enough to think that it’s just a mistake and as soon as they realize that hey, I’d like to look at the steak section that you’ve been standing in front of for 10 mins too otherwise I wouldn’t have been standing here, they’ll realize their mistake and rectify it. But that rarely happens.

Anyway, I think that’s enough rants for tonight. I feel better, do you? And feel free to tell me I’m wrong and an asshole.