Every feel like you have days/nights where you can’t do or say anything right with anyone? I sure as hell do: and tonight has been one of those nights. So when in doubt, get drunk I guess. I may post random music videos on here tonight til I pass out, hopefully no repeats. Hope everyone is having a better night than me.


Facebook, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways

I know I’ve bitched about Facebook on here before in how I think it’s for a lot of people a way to present their lives as being perfect to people that they don’t ever actually see, but I actually think it’s more insidious than that. I got a friend request from someone the other day whose first name I recognized but not the last name, clicked on it, and it was one of my ex girlfriends from some years ago. I didn’t really delve too deeply into the profile but obviously since she had a different last name she was married. For whatever reason, maybe sentimentality, I accepted the request. Then today I check my newsfeed or whatever the fuck it is and find out she just had a kid. While I’m happy she and her husband had a kid, and I’m not singling her out, it still pisses me off that Facebook basically reminds me on a regular basis what a loser I am.

Now of course it’s noone’s fault but mine that I’m a 36 year old single loser with no kids, but still, do I have to subscribe to a service to remind me of this? I dwell on it plenty w/o having it shoved in my face. I’ve contemplated just deleting my Facebook acct on several occasions for the aforementioned reasons, but I keep it because it’s the only way I keep in touch with some of my friends. With all the bullshit they add to it every day, can’t I get some kind of filter that will avoid me getting updates or friend requests that make me feel like shit? Come on Zuckerberg or whatever the hell your name is, I’m sure I’m not the only one that feels this way.


I sadly have become desensitized to a lot of the violent shit that goes on these days, like the whackjob who shot up all the little kids in Connecticut, but for some reason this latest thing in Boston really pisses me off. I saw that they have photos of the douchebags now. I read part of Obama’s speech today and while I don’t always agree with him, he was right. He basically made fun of these two little bitches talking about how they were cowards that thought doing this made them important.

I don’t know if these guys are muslims, anti-government guys, or just pathetic losers. Well, no matter what their beliefs they are pathetic losers. I’m so sick of these douchebags in this country or wherever that decide their life/lives suck, and instead of looking in a fucking mirror and seeing that it’s their own damn fault, they take their shit out on innocent people.

So ya know what, whoever you are. You’re a couple of worthless pussies. You killed an 8 year old kid..that make you feel like big men? You injured and killed hundreds of innocent people…proud of yourselves? And you don’t have the balls to even admit what you did. If it were up to me, I’d tie your sorry bitch asses up, take you down to the rough part of South Boston, and put signs on you saying “Hey, we’re the pussies that killed an 8 year old kid”. Unfortunately you’ll probably get caught by the police or FBI and we’ll waste time and money putting your sorry asses in jail. At least you’ll probably get put in the general population and get the shit kicked out of you every day.

As and adjunct to my former rant, I’d like to say that in cases such as the psycho that shot up the Batman theater or these guys if we catch them or any other douches where there’s incontrovertible evidence that they did the crime, we shouldn’t waste time on a trial. These are mentally defective people that need to be removed from society. I’d vote that we toss them in a cell with some really fucked up criminals and tacitly let such prisoners know that we want them dead with maximum pain and they won’t be punished for it. Putting assholes like these on trial just give them what they want…attention.



K, so I have a blog, facebook, an iphone 5, and I’m going to school for computers(information security), so despite the fact that I’m 36 years old, I’m not exactly a technological neophyte, but I just don’t get twitter. Granted I’m not a 15 year old so I don’t have any friends that I know of that are really on it, but still. There’s older people than me that are on twitter but they are also celebrities of some sort. Frankly, I don’t know who would read anything I posted so why bother? It’s enough for me to have friends and such that read my blog when I get around posting on it.

The sad thing is that I’d probably be pretty good at twitter if I committed to it and had people that followed me, since I have random thoughts at all times of the day that might be amusing or interesting. I actually have an account that I check maybe once a month and it’s just a few people(mostly sports related) that I might be interested in what they think about a particular event or occurance, but I don’t think I’ve ever posted anything on it. I have no clue how the hash tag thing works and basically I think unless you’re the aforementioned 15 year old with a lot of friends on it or the celebrity, I don’t see the point of it. If I need to tell something to one person I’ll text them, a few more people I might Facebook it, and if I just want to vent I’ll blog.

I’d love for someone to explain twitter to me and how it could enrich my life, but I just don’t see it. Like I said, I’m 36 so part of me feels old that I haven’t embraced it or learned how it works but the other part of me says I’m 36 and a nobody so who would give a fuck what I might have to say on it anyhow.

Rants and Ramblings

I’m on spring break now, which while it’s nice not having to worry about classes for the week, more makes me sad since I can remember when spring break actually meant something. I still have a bit of work to keep me busy during the day but I’m bored as all hell tonight. I don’t know if it has something to do with the fact that I live alone and am alone so much, or if it’s just how my mind works, but sometimes I just get a feeling I can best describe as malaise. It’s not just being bored, it’s being bored to the point where anything I can think of doing sounds boring too. So, I figured I might as well try to kill some time by writing for a few.

Right now I have Chopped on the Food Network on in the background. I actually like the show but it reminded me of something that annoys the hell out of me: commercials. Chopped is one of those shows that does the cliffhanger commercial break before they eliminate someone etc. Obviously if it’s a show like Mad Men that I actually follow I’ll DVR it and fast foward through the commercials, but on a night like tonight where I’m just flipping, I’m forced to watch them. I think maybe I’m one of those people that tends to notice annoying or stupid things more than other people: obviously a great talent to have.

I think it was watching a lot of the NCAA basketball tourney that pushed me over the edge, because they not only have mandated tv timeouts but towards the end of games they go to commercial practically everytime someone is fouled and whenever a coach calls a timeout, which is a lot. I’ve realized that I despise most commercials. Now I understand that the reason that I’m getting to watch the NCAA’s or whatever show for free is that there are commercials and that they are a necessary evil. I just hate the fact that people that get paid millions upon millions of dollars per…the advertising firms, can’t come up with something even mildly clever and non insulting to my intelligence 75% of the time.

Granted, and not to sound arrogant, I realize that I’m more intelligent than a large amount of people in this country, and that I also have a tendency to get annoyed by things that others don’t notice, but seriously. Whether it’s the fact that most commercials portray men as bumbling idiots, or all groups of people together are apparently legally mandated to include a minority, or that every 4th commercial is for an insurance company that’s trying to tell me what great people they are and how they are going to improve my life, I can barely take it anymore.

Quick(or not so quick sidebar): I know I’ve bitched about insurance company commercials before but I feel the need to get deeper into that. As far as insurance companies go, we are either legally mandated to buy your…car insurance, or we buy it for peace of mind as in life or homeowner or other types of insurance. In turn, you bank on the fact that your customers will pay you more than you will ever have to actually pay out to them in claims. You’re a business, and from the fact that five or six insurance companies can afford to buy huge amounts of advertising time during big sporting events and primetime shows, you’re apparently raking in the cash. So quit trying to make out like you’re some charity made up of great people that just want to help your customers and that our lives will be better if we have an AllStateFarmGeico insurance policy. You’re looking to make money, not unlike any other business, but Starbucks doesn’t try to convince me that they are making my coffee to make my life better.

Insurance company ads are about as disingenuous as beer commercials where they basically imply that you have to have Bud or Miller or whatever beer at your party to have a good time, yet in tiny words at the bottom of the ad they tell you to drink responsibly. They don’t want you to drink responsibly, they could care less as long as you buy their product. They probably would prefer you don’t headon a family while driving drunk, but outside of that, they are responsible for as many deaths as cigarette companies, yet noone is up in arms at Anheuser Busch or Coors. I looked this up one time, because with people who have been shot suing gun companies, I was surprised that an alcohol company had never been sued for a drunk driving death. But apparently the alcohol lobby is strong, because it’s never happened.

But, despite the fact that the hypocrisy of these various industries’ ads, the ones that bother me the most are the ones that just flat out insult my intelligence. Every now and then you’ll see a clever ad campaign, but most of them are just mind numbingly stupid. Whether it’s the myriad of commercials that imply or flat out show that all men are apparently morons, or the commercials for a product that you’ve never heard of that do nothing to tell you what that product is, to the GoDaddy commercials that imply if you log onto their website that you’ll see Danica Patrick naked, just ugh. And then you have the pharmaceutical commercials for drugs for things that most people don’t really want to know…ED, problems with pissing, herpes, etc. And of course the government mandate that they tell you all the possible side effects that invariably sound worse than whatever was wrong with you in the first place.

Anyway, I could rant about this all night long but I’ll stop now. I’d just like to say that if your job is to get paid a shitload of money to come up with an ad campaign, earn your freaking money and don’t act like EVERY person in this country is a drooling moron.

Random observations and stuff I’ve noticed lately

First off, has anyone else noticed how literally every third commercial is for a freaking insurance company? Between Geico, State Farm, and Allstate….I’m literally being saturated with freaking insurance…and that doesn’t even take into account Flo and whatever company she’s shilling for. And we’re not talking at 3am, these companies are running adds during primetime and especially bigtime sporting events like the NCAA tourney. If these companies are making such profits that they can run so many freaking adds, then somehow they must be fleecing the fuck out of their customers near as I can tell despite the fact that they claim to be such great people who are just there to help.

I try not to get political on this blog because I think most if not all politicians from either side are equally corrupt, but one thing that pisses me off is how we supposedly have antitrust/anti monopoly laws in this country, yet almost everyone can relate to getting fucked by only having one(or two if they are very lucky) choices when it comes to tv/internet access. My only choice up here is shitty ATT dsl which sucks ass and doesn’t provide the speed that I pay for. For tv you can get satellite which I actually think is better than cable, but for internet, most of us are used to getting bent over and fucked by whichever company has the monopoly in our area. And yet, the government doesn’t seem to give a shit. Hmmm, I wonder why that is? Maybe because your comcasts and others are shelling out some really big money through their lobbyists in Washington?

I’m all for free enterprise and making as much cash as you can, but really, when our government and laws come down to who spends the most money and buys the most politicians, shit’s gone wrong. But what are the chances that the same politicians that take this money are going to pass laws to change things? Nil I think we know.

I remembered one more thing that’s pissed me off lately. Pandora is no longer truly free. I’m a huge Pandora fan and have been for years, I don’t mind the visual ads on every song, or the audio ones after a certain number of songs, or the fact that I couldn’t really choose which songs I listened to. But now they are complaining that they aren’t making enough money and are limiting your listening time per month on mobile devices…which is the only way I and I would guess most people listen to it. Granted I’ve been getting free internet radio for years and that’s cool, but don’t piss on me and tell me it’s raining by claiming that all of a sudden it’s too expensive to let me listen to your shit for “free” with constant ads and try to corral me into paying monthly to use your premium service. Frankly if I’m going to pay then I’d probably go with Spotify or some other service where I can actually choose which songs I want to listen to.

Well, I suppose that’s enough complaining for one evening, maybe I’ve just had my brain fried by watching like 24 hours of basketball over the last few days, and having to watch so freaking many of the same damn commercials and then having to wait for buffering when I want to watch a video on youtube.

Insanity(wall of text)

So it’s almost 840 in the am eastern time and I’m working on about two hours of sleep in the last 48 or so and I’ve now reached that point where my body is exhausted but my mind feels like I’m on some kind of speed. I couldn’t sleep Wednesday night because I was upset about something and then the insomnia kicked in and I’m trying not to rely on the ambien too much anymore. I was tired as hell all day yesterday and meant to get to sleep at a decent hour last night but then I ended up getting into a long fight with someone that I really care about…the fact that I was running on empty as far as sleep goes probably didn’t help that situation either.

I’m the type of person where when I get in a fight or argument I always feel like I have to get the last word in and by this point it was in the late hours of the night and my lack of sleep or coherent thought only exacerbated things and now I may have fucked up things with this person beyond repair so now I’m sad and pissed off at myself which isn’t helping the case for sleep. I don’t know why I feel the need to fuck everything up in my life sometimes but it really sucks.

Thank god I only have a bit of work to do today and no classes since ill probably end up sleeping half the day away and will still be pretty much worthless. Guess it’s a good thing I don’t have any plans this weekend. I’m so tired that my body hurts yet like I said my mind is still in overdrive.

I just really hope there’s some way to salvage things with the person I had the fight with but I’m not feeling too optimistic at the moment and that makes me sad. Well, off to try sleep again I guess…what a fun day so far.