Happy Birthday to me

Ugh, so in about 10 mins I’m turning 36. Birthdays suck when you hit a certain age regardless but I sure as hell didn’t think my life would be like this at this age when I was a kid. If I even thought about being this old I guess I would have thought that I’d have a great job, a wife, maybe some kids. Instead I’m pretty much 0-3 on those counts. I guess it could be worse but man, this year I really need to fix some things in my life. I don’t want to be in the same place at this time next year.


Random observations and stuff I’ve noticed lately

First off, has anyone else noticed how literally every third commercial is for a freaking insurance company? Between Geico, State Farm, and Allstate….I’m literally being saturated with freaking insurance…and that doesn’t even take into account Flo and whatever company she’s shilling for. And we’re not talking at 3am, these companies are running adds during primetime and especially bigtime sporting events like the NCAA tourney. If these companies are making such profits that they can run so many freaking adds, then somehow they must be fleecing the fuck out of their customers near as I can tell despite the fact that they claim to be such great people who are just there to help.

I try not to get political on this blog because I think most if not all politicians from either side are equally corrupt, but one thing that pisses me off is how we supposedly have antitrust/anti monopoly laws in this country, yet almost everyone can relate to getting fucked by only having one(or two if they are very lucky) choices when it comes to tv/internet access. My only choice up here is shitty ATT dsl which sucks ass and doesn’t provide the speed that I pay for. For tv you can get satellite which I actually think is better than cable, but for internet, most of us are used to getting bent over and fucked by whichever company has the monopoly in our area. And yet, the government doesn’t seem to give a shit. Hmmm, I wonder why that is? Maybe because your comcasts and others are shelling out some really big money through their lobbyists in Washington?

I’m all for free enterprise and making as much cash as you can, but really, when our government and laws come down to who spends the most money and buys the most politicians, shit’s gone wrong. But what are the chances that the same politicians that take this money are going to pass laws to change things? Nil I think we know.

I remembered one more thing that’s pissed me off lately. Pandora is no longer truly free. I’m a huge Pandora fan and have been for years, I don’t mind the visual ads on every song, or the audio ones after a certain number of songs, or the fact that I couldn’t really choose which songs I listened to. But now they are complaining that they aren’t making enough money and are limiting your listening time per month on mobile devices…which is the only way I and I would guess most people listen to it. Granted I’ve been getting free internet radio for years and that’s cool, but don’t piss on me and tell me it’s raining by claiming that all of a sudden it’s too expensive to let me listen to your shit for “free” with constant ads and try to corral me into paying monthly to use your premium service. Frankly if I’m going to pay then I’d probably go with Spotify or some other service where I can actually choose which songs I want to listen to.

Well, I suppose that’s enough complaining for one evening, maybe I’ve just had my brain fried by watching like 24 hours of basketball over the last few days, and having to watch so freaking many of the same damn commercials and then having to wait for buffering when I want to watch a video on youtube.

First post in ages

I haven’t posted in forever. I’d like to say it was all due to me being busy, which I have been, but part of it has just been laziness, which is stupid because once I start writing I generally enjoy it. I’ve been quite busy with school. The computer classes are easy but having to retake college algebra after 15 years of basically avoiding math like it’s the plague is pretty tough. I’ve amazingly got a B in the class after two tests but it still gives me headaches having to do shit like quadratic equations and such again. Shit that I will basically never use in my life again. But oh well, that’s the state university system. At least I did well enough on the entrance exams that I’m not having to take lower level math classes.

I’ve also been busy just with this stupid house. The house I live in is actually owned by my mom so no rent but I pay utilities and such. But even though it’s only like 4 or 5 years old all sorts of shit is going wrong with it and she’s sick of sinking money into it and I’m sick of having to deal with the problems and also am going to need to be closer to Atlanta next fall to take the classes I need. So, looks like I’ll be looking for a place closer to Atlanta over the summer. I don’t think I want to move back into the city or Buckhead or Vinings like my mom wants me to, but I need to be closer to the city. Would also be nice to see my friends without having to drive an hour and 20 mins or so each way. I’ll probably look to stay on the northside of town, maybe Canton or somewhere a little bit closer. I don’t really fit into the Buckhead lifestyle anymore since I’m not pulling down 100k plus a year and driving a beamer, and none of my friends really live near there anymore.

Since I try to be honest on here, I’ll explain further my feelings about living around where I grew up. I basically feel like my life thus far has been pretty much a failure and anytime I’m down in Atlanta I dread running into someone I went to school with. I went to one of the pricier and more prestigious private schools in Atlanta and already was used to being around kids whose parents had a lot more money than mine did, but these days I dread running into someone I went to high school with and having to have the excruciating conversation about what we both have been and are doing since then. Hell, I’d probably feel the same way running into people I went to college with which is why I don’t go to homecoming and stuff like that. I have my small group of friends that I guess accept me as the fuck up of the bunch, and I appreciate them for accepting me. I do feel good that I’m back in school and actually DOING something to better my life now because it makes me feel less worthless, but I still have those feelings a lot. I think that’s part of why I’ve become a mountain hermit. Up here I’m doing better than most by a ways.

The reason I mention living close to where I grew up is that my rich cousin has a townhouse she no longer lives in that she is in the process of telling the people that are living in it to get the fuck out, so my mom wants me to rent or even come to some arrangement to buy it from her. But it’s pretty much in the same area I grew up in, and I know I’d run into people from my past there, and I’ve already gone into why I don’t like that idea. To be honest, I also don’t really want to be five mins from my mom either. I love her, but we do much better with a few miles between us.

So yeah, I think I’m a bit too used to the country and not rich enough these days to live there. Probably better for me to find the happy medium: somewhere that I’m not isolated like I am here, but also not somewhere that I’ll feel like a fish out of water. Plus once I get out of school I’m sure there’s a hell of a lot more computer related jobs closer to the city than up here in the hinterlands. But, I hate moving so I’m not gonna really think too much about it until this summer.

Anyway, that’s about all that’s been going on with me. Been watching the hell out of March Madness the last couple of days…the one good thing about working from home and having classes at night is that the first thursday and friday are really the best parts of the tourney.