So I guess it’s only fitting that to write this post I have to see the one below it. I’ll admit that I’m Comfortably Numb at the moment. Just not looking forward to the morning. See, I got dumped tonight. By someone that I met on the marriage/serious site eharmony. Wasn’t up to a relationship, or at least not with me.
Now I’ve dated a fair amount of women for my share, but I’ve never been dumped for caring about someone too much. I’ve fucked up relationships in the past by not being honest completely about my feelings and not talking enough. Now I’ve been dumped for pretty much the opposite, for being sad about not talking to my gf for a few days.
Lord knows I’ve got my problems with relationships but I was finally ready to settle down and maybe have kids, and I thought I’d found the person. Guess not.
After all this shit I think it might just come down to finding someone you find sexually attractive and that doesn’t drive you insane and having some kids. I used to believe in love and all that shit but like a kicked dog you can only take so much before you cower away. Fun stuff.
So I finally met the really amazing woman Cari that I mentioned in my last post and that I’ve been talking to for a little bit over a month now. I was a nervous wreck all yesterday and ended up getting a haircut in Cleveland, TN on my way to Chattanooga because nowhere was open in Hicksville Fannin county. Luckily I made it on time and we went to Cari’s favorite restaurant and had a great meal. Meeting her in person was amazing and she was everything I had hoped for and more. I have to admit that I already had feelings for this special woman and getting to hold her in my arms and just to be in her presence had me with pretty much a permagrin. Lol. Once I got over my nervousness that is.
So we had dinner and then watched a movie at her place and I had an amazing time. Well worth the hour and a half drive each way. I don’t like to jinx things or get my hopes up because they have been dashed many a time, but I really like Cari. She makes me happy and wonder what she sees in an average guy like me. So wish me luck please.
So I’m sure it’s been ages since I posted and my grammar or spelling might be off because I’m hunting and pecking on the iPad. The main reason I haven’t posted is that a bit over six weeks ago I fell and broke my wrist. Stupid dog had peed on the floor and I slipped off my feet and I guess tried to brace myself with my hand. Not good times. I had to drive myself to the ER so they wouldn’t give me any pain meds because I was driving home. They sent me home with a scrip I couldn’t fill til the next morning and a freaking Motrin.
Then two days later I got to have my first cast of my life. If you’ve never had one, they suck. I’ve essentially been one handed for six weeks. Good news is that yesterday I got it off and exchanged for a splint, which I can actually take off to shower and such. That’s big. It’s also much less cumbersome. Bad news is that I might have to have surgery to get it back to completely normal. Just wait and see right now.
The other big news in my life is that I gave up on my old dating site Plentyoffish because it was such a pain and too many casual people and joined eharmony. I’d tried it some years back and never had much luck on there but this time I have. It’s early and I don’t want to jinx it, but I met a really special woman named Cari on there and she’s kinda amazing. We’ve been texting and talking a ton but the more I get to know her, the more I like her. It doesn’t hurt that’s she’s hot in addition to being smart, funny, fun to talk to, and really sweet. She’s truly been the first bright spot in a dark bit of my life. I don’t want to get ahead of myself and we are going slow but I actually feel happy for a change. So wish me luck
Well, I can’t take anymore hunting and pecking but I am still alive and I’ll try to start posting again as the wrist gets better.
Why do I continually let people that I know are going to disappoint me keep doing so? It’s not like I’m the greatest believer in human nature around by far. You’d think I’d learn to quit letting Lucy pull the football away by now.
Well. I can’t say I’ve had a bad day per se. I’ve gotten some schoolwork done and have had guys here working on my deck and gutters. I’ve just been nervous all day waiting for the test results call from the dr’s office that may or may not come today. Ugh.
I’m glad it’s Thursday though. This has been a looong week. After going down to Atlanta last weekend I’m looking forward to planting my ass on the couch on Saturday and watching some serious football. Got LSU coming to UGA at 3:30 and I’d be stupid to not be worried about this game. I think the Dawgs can put up some points but the D and Special Teams need to get their shit together to win this one. I think I’m already starting to get that corndog smell from the LSU fans that will be coming lol.
I’m listening to the audiobook of the new Stephen King book Doctor Sleep. I’m not too far in but it seems pretty good so far. It’s ostensibly a sequel to The Shining. One of the main characters is the kid from that book now grown up. I’ll see if it’s worth a recommendation once I finish it.
Anyway, off to get a bit more work done and wondering if I want the phone to ring or not.
Just a random song that popped up on my Pandora channel that put me in a good mood.
Ugh, so I’ve had kind of shitty week so far. Been nervous because today was my followup Dr’s appointment to have more tests done to see if the results from the last ones were just an anomaly. Now I have to wait to hear back from the ones today, and if those are off have to go get more done. I’ve seriously changed my life as far as drinking and eating in the last month and I just want to be healthy. So fingers crossed I guess.
I also just busted my ass on my back deck b/c it’s got some film of moss on it and gets slick when it’s rained. I grabbed onto a crappy wooden chair to break my fall and that slammed into like right under my armpit. Hurts but it could have been a lot worse I guess.
I’ve also just been in a pissy mood this week because I finally decided to dip my toes back into the dating world and of course I see my effing ex’s profile on the dating site I use pretty much right off. I don’t know why but it pissed me off. This from the chick that claimed she was going to be too broken up and busy with school and work to even think about a relationship for a long time after we finally broke up. Now I have to see her sorry ass everytime I look at who’s viewed my profile.
But, after a few days of this I’ve just gotten to the point of saying fuck it. It’s not like I want her back. I can and will do better than her. I can find someone that is emotionally available and better looking and more simpatico with me. It will of course take some work, but it will happen. I’m just honestly pissed at myself for wasting several years on this person(I’m being nice and not using the b-word). But, what’s done is done and I have to believe that things will work out how they should in the end. I’m more ready to settle down now and I know what NOT to do in relationships and the types of relationships I should NOT be in. Not saying I don’t have my own faults I need to work on, but I can do better than her, and will.
Anyway, I’m off to cook some dinner and then try to workout if my side doesn’t hurt to bad from the fall. Hope everyone’s having a good week and please send any thoughts or wishes or whatever that I’ll get good news tomorrow or whenever they get the test results back.